I diy my T.
First, I'm not in the USA, but I suppose if someone will try to do it there, it will look a lot with my situation.
I write this with two objectives: give perspective about how fucking hard it is to get my T, and show how I do it, in the case it can help.
Its almost fucking impossible.
I literally depend on finding a specific kind of drug dealer, that works with products for body builders, like steroids and anabolics . Every time I need to find a new one, because the last link/contact stopped working. Having somebody that is a body builder can help, because its something that someone knows a guy that knows a guy... But this is very different than get recreational drugs. Its much more slippery than that.
You need cash. Its expensive, and you need to have a way to do quick monetary transactions that dont left much trail. The last time, I "officially" expended 400 bucks on plant food and substrate, but actually it was T.
How much you want to take health risks is a thing. I decided to thread cautiously, so I don't use injectable - this male it less dangerous, but still dangerous. I got gel T, and if I'm lucky, the qsp is pentravan, that give you the best absorption. I just got the biggest dosage I can find, and pray for the better. Because when you get something from a fucking drug dealer, you dont have a "guarantee or your money back" . I got a batch that made my face more squared in a way that totally meant there was a bigger dose than it was was supposed to have, and a batch that was clearly a much lower dose than it should be that clearly slowed changes in my body hair. With luck at your side, you get a box of official androgel. Its more expensive than the manipulated, but you know exactly what you got.
Its all pretty fucked. And at least I have protections as an user, in my country. Its illegal, but only sell it is a punishable crime, not having it as an user.
Asking for the tests to measure your T levels is complicated too. I'm looking for a place where you can just go, ask a test, no questions, get your result and gtfo, since the one I used last time closed. I know that in USA this is not an option, because your health system is totally inhumane.
Getting testosterone is hard as fuck and difficult to measure, dose and control. And sometimes, it is just impossible. Doing it alone means dealing with a very unstable treatment. You risk not finding a dealer, having a bad batch, its absurd that we need to be subject to this. My dignity goes to hell. I feel dirty. Not because I'm doing something ilegal, since I've been forced to illegality. But because no one should need to submit to this conditions to get treatment for anything.
And I'm not doing this diy thing because my government is screwing with trans people. It's because I dont have money to pay for a specialist, and there's a queue very long to get them trough the public system.
This is caused because we don't have enough specialists that are not transphobes or jackasses that prefer to work only with weigh loss and cosmetics. The doctors that will work with hormone therapy are fewer than the need for them.